The honest truth is…I am a yeller. I am not proud of it but it is the truth. I easily raise my voice. I have a sharp tongue and I use it too often
on my loved ones. I am easily triggered.
I come unglued and I YELL. I know this about myself and I try to not be
this way and I fail daily.
I have been dealing with a cold for over a week. The morning of Christmas Eve I woke up with a
horrible sore throat. I was miserable!!!!
I could hardly speak at all. Within minutes of waking my youngest came up
to me with blue marker on her face. I
did not yet know if it was washable or permanent but I did know that we had to
go to church that evening and I would be scrubbing her face to get it off one
way or another. I QUIETLY whispered, “Don’t write on your face hun”. Then minutes later I walked by and say her coloring
on her stuffed puppies face with the same blue marker. I gently took the marker from her hand and
put it up out of her reach. That is when
it hit him…My point was made and no voice was raised. I did not have to belittle my children for
making a poor choice. I did not have to
yell and then feel like a failure for flipping out on my children that I love
so much. I simple asked them to stop. I
stopped in my tracks and prayed, “Thank you Lord, I hear you”. The Lord speaks to me but I don’t always
listen. To get his point across to me he
has to be LOUD, in my face, and sometimes even painful (as in my horrible sore
throat) for me to hear him. As the day
went on I had time and again where I would typically raise my voice. And I every time I resisted the urge and
every time I did this it was as if my throat got better and better. By the time we went to church {Christmas Eve
service} my pain was pretty much gone. We
got ready for church with no yelling or barking orders. It was amazing!!!!
My family and I received the best blessing ever today. My sore
throat!!!
As I sit here waiting for my family to wake up to see to
what gifts Santa has brought them as they slept I know the true Christmas gift
came yesterday. A great lesson was
taught to me, a lesson that will be carried on into the days to come. I will fail some days but I will rejoice in the
good days and learn for the bad ones.
Thank you Lord for my sore throat!
It was the best Christmas gift you could have given me!
